“There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for every event under heaven.” (Ecclesiastes 3:1)
Day Fifteen: Friday, November 29, 2019
Today marks exactly two weeks since our world came crashing down. It’s now time that I switch my mindset and prepare to battle this cancer with my son.
There is a season for everything. In this trial, the season to mourn has passed and the season to fight has begun. It doesn’t mean that I’ll always be fighting with dry eyes, it just means that it’s time for battle in spite of my grief.
Day Sixteen: Saturday, November 30, 2019
Well, the epic battle I anticipated commencing, is now postponed due to the flu spreading through our house. Fever, coughing, and vomiting have taken up residency in our home. As if the cancer diagnosis (and the fishing hook injury) wasn’t enough for us to endure, three of our six kids are now sick today, one of whom is Kohen.
Day Seventeen: Sunday, December 01, 2019
The texts and phone calls keep coming in. And although I am grateful for the concern of family and friends, I just don’t want to talk to anyone about Kohen right now. I am mentally exhausted. I want to talk about anything but this cancer. Fishing, football, sweet tea . . . anything but Kohen and his situation.
I long for company for my wife and I to visit with. Of course, with the flu running through our house, I wouldn’t want anyone to visit us and risk getting sick.
Today we set up a Christmas tree that Kohen’s aunt and uncle chopped down for us in the snowy Sierras. I spectated as the kids decorated the tree, then we watched an old I Love Lucy Christmas episode. It’s all about the little moments now, and there’s no place I’d rather be than in that moment with my family.
But I’m also dreading January. January has always been the most depressing month of the year and I suspect we will be incredibly lonely as the holidays move behind us. It will also be the time that the chemo treatments come fast and furious, so Kohen and Courtney will be at the hospital more during that time.
Day Eighteen: Monday, December 02, 2019
Doctors in Utah are now saying that after they ran more tests on the biopsy from Kohen’s leg, they’re not entirely sure it’s osteosarcoma. They say it has some of the characteristics of osteosarcoma, but that it’s missing other expected characteristics.
Ugh. This is so frustrating. The unknown (every step of the way) has become so daunting and discouraging.
(Spoiler: It would later be confirmed Osteosarcoma by a doctor out of Miami, Florida.)
Day Nineteen: Tuesday, December 03, 2019
We are rapidly approaching three weeks into this trial and I’m still thinking I’m going to wake up from this nightmare, yet each day I wake, I realize this is the new norm for us. I hate it and wouldn’t wish it on my worst enemy.
I am thankful today for the little things, like the fact that we are having a beautiful snow day with a fresh layer of snow blanketing the landscape.
Day Twenty-One: Wednesday, December 04, 2019
Today, while I was at work, it was yet another day for my wife filled with phone calls to doctors and insurance companies. She’s also been frantically working to prepare for Kohen’s treatment, including making a special area in our home for Kohen where his exposure to germs will be minimized.
She is truly amazing how she handles everything she does while bearing the weight of this situation. Moms are amazing . . . but stay at home moms are uber amazing.